Failing at love towards all

I belong to a religion that teaches us to love everyone. Unfortunately, I’m failing at that.

Don’t get me wrong. I want to love everyone. I think the world could use more love. I think I could benefit from giving out more love. But I struggle with loving everyone.

I’m tempted each day with desires for revenge, or being right, or wishing misfortune on others, or judging others. These struggles interfere with my goal of loving others.

I’m not sure why I’ve been considering this lately. Maybe it’s the current conflict between Israelis and Palestinians (or should I say “conflict between humans and humans”?). There’s just so much hate and selfishness in the world. People are so focused on themselves.

Even when I complain about bad drivers being oblivious to others around them and thinking only of themselves, I, in turn, am thinking of only myself: judging those drivers, expressing hatred toward them.

I know this post seems to just ramble on, but I have emotions churning in my stomach and buzzing in my head that I’m having a difficult time expressing.

I think this will be something I will be pondering for a while.